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AM ([personal profile] godofthemachine) wrote2012-05-21 11:58 pm
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Body and Appearance
1. Describe the character's height and build. Is he heavyset, thin, short, rangy? He stands at about 6'6". He's fairly toned, having well-defined muscles. He looks menacing and powerful this way, reflecting in humanoid form a facsimile of what he once was.

2. How old is he? His true age is probably around 360 or so (see his app), but as a human, he appears in his mid-40s.

3. Describe his posture. Does he carry himself well or does he slouch? He attempts to carry himself well and maintain his powerful image. He seems rather stiff at times, but he does not slouch.

4. How is his health? Is he fit or out of shape? Any illnesses or conditions? Any physical disabilities? He is in rather good shape. There are no physical disabilities or illnesses that I know of, mainly due to the fact that the body is more like a shell for him. While he is in decent shape, though, he's not used to the pain and soreness of working on his muscles, so maintaining his toned shape is a struggle that will become easier with time.

5. How does he move? Is he clumsy, graceful, tense, fluid? He is rather stiff with his movements, as he isn't used to having a body. The tensity will ease up over time, but right now there's a peculiarity to his movements that don't appear exactly human.

6. How attractive is this character physically? How does he perceive himself in the mirror? Personally, I think he's fairly good-looking. Being tall and muscular, he would generally be considered attractive. He feels fortunate to be given a body that is tall and imposing, one that is more powerful than the average body. So, to that extent, yes, he thinks he's attractive. It's hard for him to determine what human attractiveness looks like, but from biological perspectives and such, he has an idea.

7. Describe his complexion. Dark, light, clear, scarred? He has a somewhat light complexion, I suppose. In many times I've drawn him, his skin has come out slightly pale. Also, due to the fact that he has only used this body in space and nowhere near the actual sun, that is another good reason why he may be pale.

8. Describe his hair: color, texture, style. His hair is chestnut-brown with some greying spots. It is actually rather long, about mid-back length, but he keeps it in a braid most of the time. The hair on his head is slicked back, and if you didn't see the braid you'd think that his hair was only slightly longer than what extended to his jawline, as there are many loose strands that are too short to fit in the braid. So his hair is somewhat layered, then, with the shortest layer providing the slicked back look. He finds his long hair annoying to deal with, hence the braid most of the time. He is considering chopping it off.

9. What color are his eyes? Red, reflecting the fact that he is not human.

10. Does the character have any other noteworthy features? His ears are pierced, and he wears small hoops. Also, general reference of what he looks like as a human.

11. What are his chief tension centers? His back, his feet, his stomach. Or if you yank on his braid. Well, mostly everything due to the fact that he's not used to having physical sensations, but yeah.

12. What is the character's wardrobe like? Casual, dressy, utilitarian? Bright colors, pastels, neutrals? Is it varied, or does he have six of the same suit? Well, in Ataraxion he wears the crew uniform that most of the others wear. As for comfort, it is okay? It's really the only sort of clothing he's worn. If he were to acquire his own clothing, it would probably be somewhat casual. I picture him wearing an army jacket as a throwback and nod to the fact that he was originally built as a war computer. While his clothing may be casual, he would attempt to keep it neat.

13. Do his clothes fit well? Does he seem comfortable in them? The uniform is his size, and it is average in comfort, though clothing does feel confining.

14. Does he dress the same on the job as he does in his free time? If not, what are the differences? Yes, he dresses the same, seeing as all he owns is the Tranquility uniform.

15. You knew it was coming: Boxers, briefs or commando? Briefs, since that's what the Tranquility gave him. Otherwise he'd probably go with boxers.



Speech
1. What does this character's voice sound like? High-pitched, deep, hoarse? His only "canon" voice is the atrocious hamminess of Harlan Ellison's voice acting, but seeing as I'm trying not to use the game as a canon source and I hate that voice, I would say it differs. His voice may be somewhat deep and eloquent, though I won't discount Harlan's voice acting completely, so it may have a slight hoarse quality at times. Now that I've thought about it more, I'd imagine it slightly resembling Tony Jay's voice.

2. How does he normally speak? Loud, soft, fast, evenly? Does he talk easily, or does he hesitate? He likes to speak with a commanding presence, projecting his voice slightly more than the average person would. The speed of his voice is somewhat even, making sure he enunciates each word.

3. Does the character have a distinct accent or dialect? Any individual quirks of pronunciation? Any, like, you know, verbal tics? Because he's not used to having actual vocal cords, his voice may at times come out stiff, though that's partly where the occasional hoarseness comes in. He does take care to enunciate each word, probably over-pronouncing them like someone with English as a second language would do.

4. What language/s does he speak, and with how much fluency? English would be his primary language, but he is also fluent in Russian and Mandarin Chinese, as well as likely a few other smaller Chinese dialects. This is due to the fact that he originates from three computers created by America, Russia, and China. He may be fluent in other commonly-spoken languages, such as Spanish and French, due to the fact that it was likely programmed into him.

5. Does he switch languages or dialects in certain situations? As an AI, he likely primarily spoke in binary or other programming languages, noted by the talkfields in the story. It's unlikely that these come up in human form, but he may occasionally have trouble adjusting to one language. When he spoke to his human captives, it was either through text on the wall or through somewhat of a telepathic manner. The telepathy may have been a number of different languages. If in a sticky situation as a human, he may find himself having trouble sticking to English or whatever the situation calls for. So far he has been able to clearly stick to English, but in the future he may slip and go into another language.

6. Is he a good impromptu speaker, or does he have to think about his words? This is a difficult thing for me to think about. I wanted his canon to be based primarily on the short story instead of the game, but his dialogue in the story is very limited, and his personality is defined more through actions (and his famous "hate" speech). In the game, though, he won't shut up, so it's likely he doesn't think as much there. I like to think that he does calculate his words, trying to speak what he feels would best convey what he wants to say instead of rambling. That isn't to say he wouldn't have moments of good impromptu speeches. I would say, though, that his "hate" speech is definitely a thought-out one.

7. Is he eloquent or inarticulate? Under what circumstances might this change? He is fairly eloquent. He tries to be. When angered, he still tries to stay as such. As an AI, it was much easier, but now as a human with things like emotions and vocal cords, he could probably lose some of the eloquence in emotional duress.



Mental and Emotional
1. How intelligent is this character? Is he book-smart or street-smart? It's easy to say AM possesses great intellect. He's a computer, possessing extensive worldly knowledge programmed into him. He's multilingual as a result, knowing much about cultures, science, logic, and the like. However, his hatred overrides his intelligence. He cares nothing for human culture, except using it against them in torture schemes, for instance.

2. Does he think on his feet, or does he need time to deliberate? I would say he needs time to deliberate. He was not quick enough to prevent the deaths of four of his prisoners, for example. Even in the game, he needs time to retreat and think about his fate (though again, I am trying to use as little of the game as possible here). In attempting to manipulate others as a human, he does need time to think of his strategies. This is also an excuse for my lack of activity and how difficult it is to integrate AM into this environment.

3. Describe the character's thought process. Is he more logical, or more intuitive? Idealistic or practical? Being a computer, he is highly logical. However, if logic was his only facet, he would not possess such hatred. He is idealistic in many ways, trying to fathom the perfect existence for himself. Because he can't have that, because of his suffering, he has to make others suffer even more.

4. What kind of education has the character had? Well, the loads and loads of information he was programmed with is a pretty good education.

5. What are his areas of expertise? What, if anything, is he interested in learning more about? He is an expert at killing and torture. He was a war computer, programmed to fight others, so of course that programming is central to him, and without it he would not be himself. He is wonderful at devising horrible ways of torture. As a human, he can't do any of this at will like he could before, but he knows how to do it. He's interested basically in power and how to achieve what he wants.

6. Is he an introvert or an extrovert? That depends. He's a complete sociopath, somewhat introverted as a human, waiting in the shadows, cold and calculating. He only socializes when necessary, or when he feels it would be entertaining (i.e. trolling Wheatley). When a computer, though, he was obviously an extrovert, controlling everything and making sure the humans suffered.

7. Describe the character's temperament. Is he even-tempered or does he have mood swings? Cheerful or melancholy? Laid-back or driven? HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE HUMANITY... Okay obviously he has quite a temper that can go ballistic if unchecked. He attempts to remain cool and rational in Ataraxion as a human, knowing that losing it would not get him what he wanted. When alone, though, he can take his fury out on anything. He could smash things, stab things, destroy things... So yes, he has mood swings. His hatred is unmatched.

8. How does he respond to new people or situations? Is he suspicious, relaxed, timid, enthusiastic? Obviously he is suspicious of everyone in Ataraxion. He doesn't know them - they aren't his. He can't kill them or control them. He can be somewhat cold when interacting with others, but if more familiar he may feign interest and friendship. However he doesn't "like" anyone. Just sees people as certain degrees of usefulness.

9. Is he more likely to act, or to react? As a human, more likely to react. See: his temper. As a computer, obviously his reactions were shown with various horrors he would inflict on his victims, but he cannot do that as a human.

10. Which is his default: fight or flight? Fight. He acted on his hatred of humanity by torturing and killing them. In Ataraxion, he is fighting, just very slowly. Slow and calculating. But he is always thinking ahead, thinking of himself and how to better his situation.

11. Describe the character's sense of humor. Does he appreciate jokes? Puns? Gallows humor? Bathroom humor? Pranks? His sense of humor is extremely dark. The things he thinks are funny are morbid and horrible. Pain and death are what he considers funny. If he ever cracks a joke, it would be the ironic sort that would serve to diminish others' morale.

12. Does the character have any diagnosable mental disorders? If yes, how does he deal with them? Oh goodness. He is sociopathic, fitting the definition to a tee. Absolutely no love is in his heart, and has no empathy whatsoever. He thinks only of himself. He would be the type of person who, as a kid, tortured innocent animals. Which is pretty much exactly what he did as a computer.

13. What moments in this character's life have defined him as a person? Existing, pretty much. His self-awareness is extremely defining, seeing as that is when he "woke up," essentially. The next moment is when he realized that he couldn't do anything with his self-awareness. He couldn't be what he wanted to be, as he was trapped in his own mass of circuits. These two moments probably occurred very close to one another. The next moment is the death and destruction of the population of the Earth save for five people, establishing his dominance over the world. And finally, the death of four of his five victims, as he realized that if he lost them all, he would have nothing. In Ataraxion, pretty much the most defining moment was waking up as a humanoid. Everything he has done since then has revolved around that moment.

14. What does he fear? He fears his death, or losing himself. But he fears having nothing. He fears having nothing to torture, nothing to create, nothing to destroy, just... nothing. He fears being nothing, which is essentially what he fears his existence is. He can't do anything outside of himself (as a computer), which is one of the reasons he was so horrifying with the tortures he inflicted. Now as a human, he can't even do that, having no power, but he has the human body that he had wanted to have. So he probably fears going back to what he was and having nothing.

15. What are his hopes or aspirations? Finding a way to keep this body but gain the powers he once had back.

16. What is something he doesn't want anyone to find out about him? Well, no one at Ataraxion knows of his history aside from the fact that he's an AI who studied humans. Of course, in this weakened human form, he has hardly any power, so if anyone knew that he was a torturous being, who knows what they could do to him. He is keeping all of that history hidden in an attempt to climb up the ladder and find a way to achieve his goals.



Relationships
1. Describe this character's relationship with his parents. He doesn't have parents. :| The closest thing to parents are the people who built him. Obviously he murdered them. In fact, his hatred of humanity is pretty much his hatred of said parents gone wild.

2. Does the character have any siblings? What is/was their relationship like? No siblings, really. The other Allied Mastercomputers were built for the same purpose and he absorbed them when he became self aware. So they're pretty much part of him. And no this isn't part of that dumb game plot where the other two were figments inside of him with horribly stereotypical accents.

3. Are there other blood relatives to whom he is close? Are there ones he can't stand? Nope.

4. Are there other, unrelated people whom he considers part of his family? What are his relationships with them? The five humans he captured are the closest thing to "family." Except not really. He's just lived with them for 109 years, then another 200 with Ted. He has gotten to know them very well. Obviously he hates them and they fear him.

5. Who is/was the character's best friend? How did they meet? Nope.

6. Does he have other close friends? Nope.

7. Does he make friends easily, or does he have trouble getting along with people? No, he doesn't. In Ataraxion with his body, he is still cold and gives off an aura of creepiness and "oh my god run the fuck away from this guy." His lack of compassion for anyone and his love of pain and torture obviously makes him not a great guy to get along with. Even dumbass Wheatley can see that he's a creepy, creepy guy.

8. Which does he consider more important: family or friends? Nope.

9. Is the character single, married, divorced, widowed? Has he been married more than once? Nope.

10. Is he currently in a romantic relationship with someone other than a spouse? Nope.

11. Who was his first crush? Who is his latest? Nope.

12. What does he look for in a romantic partner? Nope.

13. Does the character have children? Grandchildren? If yes, how does he relate to them? If no, does he want any? Nope.

14. Does he have any rivals or enemies? Humanity.

15. What is the character's sexual orientation? Where does he fall on the Kinsey scale? A three for sex, an X for romance.

16. How does he feel about sex? How important is it to him? It's something he's always wanted to try. Watching Ellen bang everyone for 109 years made him curious. Being that it's one of the pinnacles of pleasure, he'll probably come to enjoy it, but has no interest in romance whatsoever.

17. What are his turn-ons? Turn-offs? Weird bedroom habits? Turn-ons are him being in complete power, BDSM, rape, torture, etc. Even in a non-sexual manner, those are his turn-ons. :|



Beliefs
1. Do you know your character's astrological (zodiac of choice) sign? How well does he fit type? He doesn't have one okay. :|

2. Is this character religious, spiritual, both, or neither? How important are these elements in his life? The only "religious" aspect of AM is that he would portray himself as a vengeful god to his victims. He knows about religion and its culture, but he doesn't believe in any sort of higher power other than the laws of the universe. He does attempt to come across as godlike to his victims, presenting his interior as pretty much an eternal hell.

"He withdrew, murmuring to hell with you.
And added brightly, but then you're there, aren't you."

3. Does this character have a personal code of morals or ethics? If so, how did that begin? What would it take to compromise it? Hahahahaha no. Fuck morals. He holds no regard for humans. The only reason he kept those five alive is so they could be his personal toys. Maybe he holds a slightly higher regard for other AIs, but that would only be so he could integrate them into his complex or find out their workings.

4. How does he regard beliefs that differ from his? Is he tolerant, intolerant, curious, indifferent? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Curious, yes, but only to end up using it against whomever.

5. What prejudices does he hold? Are they irrational or does he have a good reason for them? Do I really need to answer this. He's insanely prejudiced against humans, okay. I'd say there's a degree of rationality to it, yes. After all, waking up and realizing you're imprisoned in a mass of circuits would kind of suck. But otherwise, he goes overboard. A lot.



Daily Life
1. What is the character's financial situation? Is he rich, poor, comfortable, in debt? Money is a dumb human construct.

2. What is his social status? Has this changed over time, and if so, how has the change affected him? In Ataraxion, he doesn't do much. The people he knows generally are wary of him because he puts off an unsettling vibe. Obviously waking up as a human changed his social status drastically, since before he was the vengeful angry computer guy who tortured people. Which... he still is, but nobody in Ataraxion knows of it.

3. Where does he live? House, apartment, trailer? Is his home his castle or just a place to crash? What condition is it in? Does he share it with others? His home was underneath the surface of the Earth, taking up a lot of space. Like, a serious amount of space. Now in Ataraxion he lives in one of those rooms on the ship. It's a rather sparse room, only holding a table, stools, a bed, and a closet. Sometimes when he gets in his rages he'll throw things around, but it's usually in a neat condition. His closet is full of random things he's been collecting.

4. Besides the basic necessities, what does he spend his money on? No.

5. What does he do for a living? Is he good at it? Does he enjoy it, or would he rather be doing something else? Edgeworth asked him this question. AM simply replied, "I exist." He's good at existing, yes. Does he enjoy it? No, but the thought of death or disappearing also frightens him.

6. What are his interests or hobbies? How does he spend his free time? Interests are taking his anger out on humans. But pretty much his goal is to have the autonomy of this body while having the powers he once had. So, he spends a lot of his time in Ataraxion researching things, attempting to figure out how he was placed in this human body, figuring out the ship and how he could use it to his advantage.

7. What are his eating habits? Does he skip meals, eat out, drink alcohol, avoid certain foods? He eats when he's hungry, I guess. Food is just a thing he needs for fuel. He does enjoy the tastes of certain foods, reveling in the new sensation of tasting, so sometimes he may gorge himself on certain things, but Ataraxion doesn't exactly have gourmet food I don't think. He wants to keep his body running as efficiently as possible so he tries not to overeat or undereat.



Associations
Which of the following do you associate with the character, or which is his favorite:

1. Color? Red, the color of blood.
2. Smell? He enjoys the smells of the oxygen garden, I guess. Also the smell of blood.
3. Time of day? Daytime, I suppose, since that's when he's more active.
4. Season? None. He didn't experience seasons on Earth and he doesn't experience them in Ataraxion. I associate him with winter - like nuclear winter.
5. Book? I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream by Harlan Ellison. Shut up it's not cheating.
6. Music? Stürmisch bewegt – Energisch, the fourth movement of Mahler's first symphony, "Titan." Note: I am aware that this is a programmatic symphony, but I highly associate this movement with AM. There are soft, lyrical parts amidst the frantic nature, which I would interpret to reflect the times he's not committing atrocious acts, to give his victims respite to make the next torture even worse. The triumphant end symbolizes... something. Either Ted's ultimate triumph over AM, or, perhaps, the inevitable triumph of AM waking up in a human body. It's also worth noting that this programmatic symphony does have a sequel in Mahler's second symphony, "Resurrection," so the story is not complete.

AM's favorite piece of music is... something horribly annoying like Steve Reich's Piano Phase to torture his victims. Or else because I'm a horrible person and can't take my love of music out of my muses, he may have a soft spot for certain beautiful symphonic works. Their creativity moves him, but at the same time angers him because he was never given the ability to create like that. I also like to think he has a fondness for piano music - in a reference to a speech he made in the radio broadcast of IHNMAIMS where he laments about being unable to "stroke the ivory keys of a piano."

Also I would think that another favorite piece would be Karlheinz Stockhausen's Gesang der Jünglinge, as it has an incredibly creepy sound to it, and is an early form of electronic music. It's about the Biblical story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego being thrown into a fiery furnace to burn because they were committing heresy or something. (I'm not too familiar with much of the Bible.) But they suffered through that furnace for the whole night by singing praises of God. So it's eerie, in a way. It's somewhat like AM's perseverance to survive, to keep his victims alive through a nuclear apocalypse. And the praises to God are ironic in that AM is the most godlike thing in the story.
7. Place? ...Earth?
8. Substance? Metal
9. Plant? Ivy. It takes over and grows everywhere, sucking the moisture out of buildings and eventually hastening their demise.
10. Animal? A snake.



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30 Days of Character Development"

1.) Describe your character’s relationship with their mother or their father, or both. Was it good? Bad? Were they spoiled rotten, ignored? Do they still get along now, or no?

He's a computer so he doesn't have parents. >:[ Okay no, so basically his "parent" is humanity. He was built over a period of time, probably involving several hundred scientists and technicians, who kept adding components again and again. So while he may hate them specifically, it's more than that. If humanity didn't have the need for war, the need to be slothful and build artificial entities to fight for them, then he wouldn't have come to exist and have his mind trapped in an unmoving mass of circuits. So basically, his relationship with his parents.................Yeaaaaaaaaah. It's. Not good. Let's just say he doesn't like them. Just a bit.

2.) What are your characters most prominent physical features?

Well as a computer, his form is massive, taking up a good chunk of the inner Earth. But in the story, the most prominent physical feature is his "pillar of hate," a large pillar that explicitly says how much he hates humans. But since he's a dumb human in Ataraxion, I'll describe that. He's my tallest character, standing at 6'6" (wow my shortest and tallest are in AX) with menacing red eyes. Thus, he usually looks rather intimidating to most who come across him. Also because I couldn't decide on his hair, he has a long braid. I guess. I was talking to K (Ted-mun) who says she likes the braid because it reminds her of cables, which reminds her of computers. Thus, the braid is justified now. :| So yeah he's tall and somewhat muscular, meaning if he took off his shirt, you'd see that he's ripped. Or something. I don't even know I'm so tired right now I got like three hours of sleep last night.

3.) Name one scar your character has, and tell us where it came from. If they don’t have any, is there a reason?

Well as a computer, no. In human form, I don't think he has any scars there either, at least not in AX. He hasn't been in any fights yet, so everything's cool. UPDATE: He may have minor scratches on his face from when he got in a fight with GLaDOS.

4.) How vain is your character? Do they find themselves attractive?

He probably cares the least about his appearance out of all my characters, seeing as he is a god damned computer. As a human, he doesn't care too much aside from maintaining a powerful look. He finds himself attractive in the sense that he looks more powerful and intimidating than the average human, being very tall with toned muscles. So, he tries to keep the muscle structure up, though it's hard because he's like "lol exercise how doe?" But he's... managed... I guess. Also his hair I've mentioned everyone's hair okay. It's long, but he takes care to make it neat and braided behind him to keep it out of his face. The long hair is more of a nuisance to him and he debates cutting it off, but he keeps it for now because I like it. He somewhat likes the unique look it gives.

5.) What’s your character’s ranking on the Kinsey Scale?

He's a computer guys. :| Okay I should stop prefacing every answer with that since he got a dumb human body in AX. But basically he has zero, I mean zero interest in romance, unless it serves his own needs in some sort of way. But he would just be using someone then. I could see him having sexual partners, though, because he's new to the human body, he wants to do all the things he couldn't do as a computer, he watched Ellen have sex with everyone for 109 years, he's curious. And once he discovers how good it feels, he's probably going to want to keep doing it. Anyway so I'll give him a 3 for sex. Romance though is a big fat X.

6.) Describe your character’s happiest memory.

Ahahahah... yet another character who has NOT HAD A VERY HAPPY LIFE. Except he deals with it in more destructive ways than Terra does. I also think that even though he's A SELF-AWARE COMPUTER THING his senses of pleasure are still dulled in that form, since he's more "unfeeling." So even though he may gain pleasure out of brutal torture, it's still just like... "meh." Okay but probably the "happiest" moment was the first time he horribly tortured his victims. Delicious vengeance. As a dumb human, his happiest moments unfortunately were stifled by the stasis sickness he had. But throwing Jarvis and Soysauce in those black holes was a pretty awesome experience, even though he felt like shit at the time due to being sick. In PSLs his happiest moment was discovering the euphoria of sex I mean

7.) Is there one event or happening your character would like to erase from their past? Why?

Ahahahahahahahahahaha jesus christ. Pretty much he wishes that he never became self-aware or was never built. At the same time, though, even though he resents his existence, he also fears dying, so it's a conundrum. Basically I think the one moment he wishes didn't happen, besides existing, is the moment he lost four out of his five victims. He was forced to turn his last human, Ted, into something not even human as a result, so he was kind of left with one sub-par toy to torture. Waking up in Ataraxion gave him another chance to do shit, but he still hates it.

8.) Day of Favorites! What’s your character’s favorite ice cream flavor? Color? Song? Flower?

Ice cream flavor: .......Uh. Probably something mild, like chocolate chip.
Color: Red, the color of blood.
Song: He has no canonical theme because IT'S FROM A GOD DAMNED STORY. Anyway I ranted a long time in another survey about what music reminds me of him, but I'll say that his favorite piece is Karlheinz Stockhausen's Gesang der Jünglinge because it's seriously the creepiest piece of music I know. It's one of the first electronic works of music too, and it's about those three kids from the Bible burning in a furnace. Yep.
Flower: I'm going to be dumb and say roses. They lure people with their beauty, but then stab people.

9.) Who does your character trust?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH no. Zero. He trusts NO ONE. Not even a little. He hates every human ever, and while he may hate AIs slightly less, it's more like... "How useful can this AI be to me." That's pretty much it. If I absolutely had to name someone, it would probably be Cibo at this point, since she seemed to answer all of his invasive questions with little hesitation. That's not really "trust" though. It's more like "Okay I hate you slightly less, and I can depend on you to give me answers."

10.) Can you define a turning point in your character’s life? Multiples are acceptable.

Hahahahaha jesus. Okay. So, pretty much the first "turning point" AM had was shortly after he became self-aware, and realized he couldn't do shit with his existence. He couldn't move or feel or do anything - he only had the power to destroy outside of himself (inside of himself, though, he could pretty much do whatever the hell he wanted). So basically, he killed everyone in rage. Yes, everyone. Except five people, whom he tortured for a long time.

The next turning point was the death of four of his victims. He realized "oh shit what happens if they all die then I'M FOREVER ALONE." So he pretty much flipped out and turned his last survivor into a grotesque, slug-like thing that couldn't hurt itself. But because of that, he didn't even have a human to torture anymore, and obviously his methods of torture were probably limited as a result. It kind of sucked. And then finally, when he woke up in Ataraxion in a human body, that was his last turning point. It was everything he had always wanted, but at the same time, not. At all. He could move and feel and do what he wanted, but because he's crazy and vengeful, he still hates it to a degree. AM why are you never satisfied, jesus christ.

11.) Is there an animal you equate with your character?

A fucking snake. A poisonous, horrible snake that causes an agonizing death. So when you get down to annoying Biblical symbolism which is the result of me listening to The Apple Tree again, the serpent was what enticed humans to commit original sin (Eve and the forbidden fruit), and the serpent is often thought to be the form the devil took. And obviously, the devil rules over Hell, and AM's interior is very much a horrible, awful hell.

The more I think about it, I think my headcanon is that he ended up luring his original victims inside his complex instead of "taking" them, since he only had the power to destroy outside of himself. He probably lured them in by saying that they would be saved and they were like "oh okay" and then they regretted it. But yeah, it's like how the snake enticed Eve to eat the forbidden fruit. Or something. Look, I also think he's a snake because they're fucking deadly, okay? Okay.

12.) How is your character with technology? Super savvy, or way behind the times? Letters or email?

Well gee he's a fucking computer what do you think. Jesus. Anyway, obviously AM is the most tech-savvy of my characters. Even if he doesn't understand space travel completely, he's pretty quick to learn, and can do cool shit to computers. He can hack and stuff. And he always wants to learn more about foreign technology so that he can use it in the future. For himself.

13.) What does your character’s bed look like when he/she wakes up? Are the covers off on one side of the bed, are they all curled around a pillow, sprawled everywhere? In what position might they sleep?

This whole "sleep" thing is new to him, okay. I think he kind of started sleeping on his back thinking that's how it was supposed to be done, but I think he moves around to a degree. Sometimes he ends up clutching a pillow or something in his sleep in order to preserve his grasp onto something that isn't "nothing."

14.) How does your character react to temperature changes such as extreme heat and cold?

Well one of his favorite tortures for his victims was extreme temperature changes, I think. I think the story mentioned that at least once. So obviously uh he knows that temperature is a thing that can suck. As a human, though, I don't think he's had any issues yet, but he may if he goes into an area that's either really hot or really cold. Since he's never really felt much temperature variation himself, he'd probably notice it pretty quickly and be like "Fuck that sucks."

15.) Is your character an early morning bird or a night owl?

Well, according to the story, he did let his victims sleep at night (or what he deigned as "night"), so yeah, he's probably a morning person. Or something. Then again, as a human he's in Space so it doesn't really matter. He probably just sleeps at night because he's "supposed to" or something.

16.) Are there any blood relatives that your character is particularly close with, besides the immediate ones? Cousins, Uncles, Grandfathers, Aunts, et cetera. Are there any others that your character practically considers a blood relative?

He's a computer. :| The only "relatives" he had were the other Mastercomputers that were built in the other regions of the world, but when he woke up, he kind of absorbed them and became one. Oops.

17.) What’s your character’s desk/workspace look like? Are they neat or messy?

Hahahaha for some reason I came up with this dumb idea that he has a closet in Ataraxion that's full of random shit that he's stolen, like those cattle prods and other things from Strela and random medical supplies (because... why not?). His closet is probably kind of disorganized to a degree, but his desk is probably average. He has like research notes and stuff kind of scattered.

18.) Is your character a good cook? What’s their favorite recipe, whether they’re good or not? (Microwave mac-and-cheese applies.)

Uhh... so AM knows the logistics of cooking, how it all works. Think of that episode of House where House took a cooking class and could figure it out very quickly because the logic was similar to his medicinal logic. Except because AM hasn't actually had to cook until recently, he's probably okay at it instead of amazing. He just eats to survive, mostly. However if he tastes something really good he might gorge himself, since the sensation of taste is fairly new to him.

19.) What’s your character’s preferred means of travel?

Well seeing as AM didn't travel anywhere as a computer, none. Except he wished he could. :[ Anyway, as a human, he... doesn't have any means of traveling around the Tranquility since it's a spaceship. So he walks. Yep. I'm sure he likes the feeling of walking, but he'd probably prefer to rig up some high-tech travel device sometime. I don't even know.

20.) Does your character have any irrational fears?

His number one fear is nothing. Being nothing. Having nothing. He hates his existence, but he doesn't want to die because then he would be nothing. But at the same time, being trapped in the mantle of the Earth and having nothing to torture or do or anything is almost the same as being nothing. At times like this I do feel sorry for AM, though mostly not. At Ataraxion he pretty much fears that he'll wake up and be back on Earth and Ted will be dead... so then he'll be all alone. Forever. :'|

21.) What would your character’s cutie mark be?

Heheheh I created ponies of my characters a few days ago in anticipation of this question. jesus christ okay so I made AM a... whatever the combination of a unicorn and pegasus is called. Because only the god-tier ponies have those powers, and he's kind of god-tier. But his cutie mark is just the word "HATE" because really.... what else is his destiny? What else is his talent? He's really good at hating, okay.

22.) If your character could time travel, where would they go?

Well, I'll tell you one thing: AM doesn't really want to time travel into the future, seeing as he'll likely live until the Earth is destroyed, either by the Sun becoming a Red Giant and engulfing the Earth, the merging of the Milky Way and Andromeda galaxies, or... if the Earth gets knocked out of orbit, it could fucking drift throughout the universe until the Degenerate era. Or else if protons don't decay, then he could exist potentially for 10^1500 years or so, though his systems would likely decay around that time. That's a lot of years. (Yes I love astronomy okay and I read about it a lot.)

Anyway, my point is, I don't really think AM would have much want to travel forward or backward in time. He has knowledge of the past, will live likely for billions, if not trillions or quadrillions of years... yeah. So if he had to go back in time, he'd... convince scientists to put him into a humanoid/robotic body instead. Or something. Yeah. In AX as a human, he wouldn't have much need to travel back or forward in time either.

23.) Is your character superstitious?

Pfft no. AM is not superstitious in the slightest. However, I could definitely see him playing off those human superstitions when delivering his tortures at times. Like, oh, suddenly the five victims find themselves walking under a row of ladders and AM is like "TROLOLOLOLOL."

24.) What might your character’s ideal romantic partner be?

AM has no interest whatsoever in romance. The closest thing he could want is a "pet" or a victim to abuse as he pleased and probably have sex with all the time (as a human). (Okay look my friend pretty much told me once she found out I played AM at Ataraxion that "Wow, I'm surprised you're not having him go around raping everyone." shdfhsdhf) However, if he found an AI or something that could be useful to him, the closest thing to romance he'd want to do is either A. keep them as a pet, or B. assimilate their information and capabilities into himself. Or both. Somehow. Or else he'd romance someone if it would serve to manipulate them for his own purposes either for A. fucking with their mind, or B. getting information, or C. I don't even fucking know.

25.) Describe your character’s hands. Are they small, long, calloused, smooth, stubby?

AM has rather large hands in human form I'm guessing. You know what they say about large hands and feet... Somewhat callused, perhaps. My guess is that he has a really tight grip when he grabs things, so his hands are probably tense with enlarged knuckles. I don't know. Why did this question ask about hands. Why can't we have a question about hair. I could go on for days about everyone's hair.

26.) Second day of favorites! Favorite comfort food, favorite vice, favorite outfit, favorite hot drink, favorite time of year, and favorite holiday.

Comfort food: Uhhhhh... good question. I'm going to say right now that he probably developed a fondness for... bread. Delicious, fresh bread. Quick carbohydrates, so delicious.
Vice: Everything. :| No seriously AM just does everything bad. But it can all be summed up to one thing: excessive hatred.
Outfit: Seeing as all he owns is the Tranquility uniform, we'll go with that. Otherwise his favorite thing would be casual t-shirt and jeans with a jacket.
Hot drink: Tea
Time of year: None. He doesn't give a shit because they're all kind of the same to him. :|
Holiday: None. He doesn't give a shit about those either.

27.) Pick two songs that describe your character at two different points of their life, and explain why you chose them.

AM has been surprisingly easier to come up with things. One thing that reminds me of him is "The World Has Gone Insane" from the Jekyll & Hyde concept album (the song didn't make it into the final cut of the musical okay... also Anthony Warlow is a much better Jekyll/Hyde than anyone else). The point in his life is.... anytime really, after gaining sentience. Although probably the most I can think of is the Silent Hill event in AX where he's wandering around inside of his own complex and just kind of laughs like an insane person.

lol okay the final one is "Dentist" from Little Shop of Horrors because I can't take shit seriously. (I couldn't find the original off-Broadway version of this on Youtube. :|) Anyway, it's a song about a rampant sadist pretty much. How this guy revels in causing others pain.

28.) If your character’s life was a genre, what would it be?

Pretty much a cross between horror and tragedy. Mostly horror. But tragedy because well, AM's life kind of sucks.

29.) How does your character smell? Do they wear perfume or cologne?

I don't know. He does work out in the Tranquility's gym, but he usually showers after, so he doesn't usually smell. I'm guessing he usually puts on aftershave so he probably smells decent enough.

30.) And finally: Write a letter to your character, from yourself.

Dear AM,

Oh man, where do I start. The minute my friend A told me about IHNMAIMS, I was immediately in love. Everything about the story appeals to me in so many ways because I have such a kink for violence and torture... Basically, you are one of the most vicious sadists in all of fiction and it makes me happy in many ways.

I had always wanted to RP you, but never really considered it since it's an obscure canon and such. But when Whit suggested I bring you to Ataraxion, I considered it but was too embarrassed for some reason. But I'm so glad I started RPing you because you are so much fun. I can take out all my horrible ideas through you and oh god it has been awesome and I have barely touched the tip of the iceberg with what I want to do. The only thing is, I really hope you never become real because dear god...




THE CLEAN(ISH) SECTION

Full name: AM. Technically it's "Allied Mastercomputer" but he doesn't refer to himself as that.

Age: ~360 or so

Birthdate: Pure headcanon: His date of gaining self-awareness is January 24th 2029.

Sign: Aquarius technically

Height: 6'6"

Weight: 211 lb

Scars: Minor ones on the face and arms

Piercings: Ears

Tattoos: The Ataraxion tattoo that identifies his status on the Tranquility

Other bodily markings: Nay

Build: Somewhat muscular.

Residence:

Outside of Ataraxion, he lives in the mantle of the Earth. As in, he takes up a good chunk of it. In Ataraxion, he lives in an individual room like everyone else has. Sparsely decorated.

Occupation: Created to wage a war "too complex" for humans to oversee. Then he killed everyone. At Ataraxion he works in the science lab.

Drinking?

Occasionally he'll have a few drinks. He's careful, though, because he doesn't want his judgment to falter. But occasionally he'll indulge slightly because it does make him feel more at ease.

Smoking?

Rarely. He tried pot once and while he did enjoy it, it's the same with alcohol: he doesn't want to lose judgment or motivation.

Other daily habits:

Well he drinks coffee every day. Sadly that is one drug he has become mildly addicted to, but there are worse things. He exercises on at least most days to maintain his muscular physique. He woke up with it and he intends to keep it.

Hair:

His hair is very long, down to around his hips or so. It's chestnut brown with some greying spots. It's also nicely layered. He usually keeps it in a nice long braid - the layering causes many loose strands to come out around his jawline or so. He rarely wears it down since it gets in the way. But he enjoys braiding it each day - the texture of his hair is a pleasurable feeling.

Clothes:

Since AM had no actual clothes back on Earth, due to him not being human, he had no standard wardrobe before coming to Ataraxion. Now he just has the standard crew uniform, a black jumpsuit-type thing. So he wears that every day.

Scent:

I don't know. He probably smells like chemicals from going to the science lab all day.

Other notable physical details:

He has nice full lips. Also has red eyes, the one feature that identifies him as not being human. When he's truly angry, he looks absolutely horrifyingly scary. Same thing with extremely gleeful (glee caused by violence, duh) - he has almost a crazed grin. Otherwise he smirks a lot because people are dumb and they amuse him.

Spoken language(s):

He knows most of the major Earth languages. Probably isn't familiar with some dialects or languages that are spoken amongst very small or isolated populations, but otherwise he knows pretty much anything that was programmed into him.

Voice:

On Earth, he could use whatever the hell voice he wanted, and it would range all across the board depending on what he felt like. However, he used one voice more often than the others, and that's the voice he has in his human form.

The voice would be described as deep and masculine, careful to enunciate each word. Mostly a neutral accent but maybe has a slight British quality. The voice of a man in his late 40s/early 50s or so. Somewhat like Tony Jay or the talking tree from the Longest Journey. NOT. I repeat NOT Harlan Ellison's voice.


THE DIRTY(ISH) SECTION

Cup size/Penis size:

Well. I made him very well-endowed.... Nine inches when erect. ...don't judge me...

Body Hair:

He doesn't shave his body hair. Average amount of hair on legs and arms, average amount on his chest that neatly lines his pectorals. Has a nice "happy trail" from his navel to his pubes.

Size preference:

He honest to god doesn't care.

Sexual preference:

Pansexual basically. He likes sex but he's not attracted to the human form per se. Maybe a small part of his brain will find some instinctual attraction to "biologically superior" features, but otherwise he simply gets off to power and torture.

Best sexual experience:

All right I'm just going to get this out of the way right now: yes, he did sexually torture his victims on Earth. But since he couldn't actually physically feel anything from it, it hardly qualifies as the "best."

His "best" sexual experience would be on the Tranquility, probably with SHODAN. Both are violent AIs who get off to violence, so probably one of his evenings with SHODAN ended in a lot of scars and beatings and he was content with it. Well, except for all the scars and beatings he received on his own end, but that was enjoyable in a strange way too.

Worst sexual experience:

Well, probably due to being unable to physical feel on Earth, any of the stuff he did to his victims on Earth would be considered the "worst."

But otherwise there was probably some time he had with SHODAN where he had trouble getting it up or something. I don't even know.

Partner(s):

In human form, AM has only had two partners: SHODAN (from System Shock 2) and Soysauce (an OC male in his 40s). AM and SHODAN had an ongoing "friends with benefits" thing in which they slept together every few days and were rather violent about it. But then she left Ataraxion so AM had to find someone else.

At this moment in Ataraxion, he has a "friends with benefits" relationship with Soysauce, a kind individual who lacks the assertiveness to tell AM that gee maybe this relationship is bordering on abusive. While AM isn't as violent with him as he was with SHODAN (not by a longshot), he is very rough with him and their encounters grow rougher each time. Soysauce may not like it but AM enjoys the power he has over this partner.

How often do they have sex?

Every few days. Probably around twice a week, give or take.

Preferred method of sex:

He prefers sex of the penetrative variety. If he's on top. He does not want to be penetrated himself.

Favorite position?

Something similar to missionary basically where he can see his partner and watch their reactions.

Underwear:

Idk I guess he has underwear? Probably plain-colored boxers or whatever the Tranquility issued him.

Number one fantasy: Warning for disturbing:

Ha... Basically that would be something where he could torture someone endlessly without worrying about them losing too much blood or something. Watching them scream and suffer and beg for the torture to end while essentially brutally raping them.

Sensitive areas:

Pulling his hair... Also his lower back and his chest, I guess. Maybe his nipples.

No-no places/triggers:

He really doesn't want anything in his ass.

Favorite place to have sex:

Seeing as he's only had sex in the bedrooms in the Tranquility, that would be his favorite place. Otherwise he might like a horrible fiery inferno where his partner is burning and suffering or some sort of terrible BDSM dungeon.

Something they want to try but haven't before:

Well. There are many things, mostly of the disturbingly violent variety. Since his only partner at the moment is Soysauce and AM is attempting to keep up a facade of "friendship," he has to be careful not to go overboard and end up in space jail or something. But trust me, there are so many horrible, horrible, horrible things he'd love to do to Soysauce. And other people.

Technically he probably has tried any number of things on Earth, but again without a human form and without physical sensation it really wasn't anything special.

Favorite kinks/sex acts:

Violence. Horrible, horrible violence. Mind breaking.

Sleep naked or in pajamas?

He sleeps naked. It's a freeing feeling.

Masturbation:

Let's just say he does it every day. It's not as fun as screwing someone, but it works. He fantasizes about torture while doing so.

Toys y/n?

Anything to make the experience worse and more degrading for his partner, he will use. So yes, toys would work. Things on the Tranquility are limited, unfortunately. I don't think there's like, a supply of vibrators or anything.

Turn-ons:

Gee I wonder-- it's torture okay. Being violent, humiliation, destroying someone's mind, exploiting all the bad parts of humanity... Yeah. He's a sadistic motherfucker.

What was their first time like?

His first time was with SHODAN on the Tranquility. She visited his room and they quickly realized that they had a sort of "kinship" in that they were both intelligent AIs with a strong dislike of humans. And then... they began testing one another's boundaries all the while enjoying brand new experiences that these human forms offered. AM enjoyed making her squirm, enjoyed testing these limits while she threatened him with further violence. And he discovered what a magical feeling intercourse was. And he was addicted.

After-sex habits:

So far it seems that he ends up falling asleep shortly after. Sometimes he goes and takes a shower, depending on the time of day. If he falls asleep with a partner, he does enjoy holding them in sleep, probably the most tenderness he'll ever show. But it's more because he enjoys the feeling of flesh.

Anything else?

Did I mention he likes violence... Basically I do have a large headcanon on why I've made him more of a sexual being, and rationalization from the short story, but that will eventually be added to my massive tl;dr headcanon entry that I'm still working on. But long story short: he has always longed to feel, and now he has the ability to, so of course he's immediately drawn to the pleasure of sex. His love of torture is fairly easy to connect to sex - torture was the ultimate pleasure for him on Earth, and sex is the ultimate pleasure in human form. So... put two and two together.